“Think over what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.” – 2 Timothy 2:7
When I realized that my entire life was feeling inauthentic, it opened up harrowing, confusing questions, and I was forced to go down the road of figuring out who I really was and what I was designed to do. The problem is that when you’re feeling lost and totally confused, feeling murky and uncertain, you will experience lot of second-guessing and doubt. You may make a decision to start taking strides in one direction, then you feel like no, that’s all wrong – I don’t want to do that. Then you feel like you don’t know what you want or who you are; you are just confused all together. I have been feeling this way for months now, feeling as though I don’t belong or just confused about where I want to be. I had to really sit down and just be quiet. That meant taking time off social media, not answering emails or phone calls, as these are always distractions from what’s really going on. We turn to these things to numb ourselves instead of facing the actual issues straight on. The feelings that I had been undergoing are centered on old family wounds and even new family wounds. I have discovered that feeling lost and totally confused becomes a mask that prevents me from feeling the truth about my life. Lost and confused often times become the cover from the drama that averts one from seeing those hard-to-face-truths about the marriage that isn’t working or the friendships that feel inauthentic or disingenuous. When you begin to see clearly into the truth, lost – confused – the murky – fumbling- don’t know what you want variety dissipates, quickly. When I finally saw the truth of who I was or my creative longings were revealed all the areas that were unclear; my marriage, my friendships, and my desired career stopped being foggy and became quite clear. When I finally realized the truth of what I really wanted and where I ached, I realized it gets harder before it gets better. My Father spoke to me in this time and gave me Words of great comfort, He said my child it will get better. And it will be worth it if you commit to this one very important thing: making strides to see what’s on the other side of harder. If you give up before then, you missed out on the greater that’s on the other side. Hallelujah!!!!
Lord, I come before You today to thank You for clarity and removing all confusion. Thank You for helping me face my truth and not be afraid to face it. God I come to ask for forgiveness for not having faith in those moments of testing. I am so grateful for Your love and Your forgiveness. I promise You that in my moments of weakness I will not deny your comfort, but I will come before You to ask You for strength, and to trust that You are the God that will make all things possible. I know that as long as You are leading me my life you will lead and guide me unto all truths. And in those moments that it may seem as though I am to weak to carry the burdens, that’s when You are made strong! I will continue to fight to live worthy of Your calling in Jesus name I pray, Amen.
ENTER INTO WORSHIP
Contributed by: Norell Porter
Norell raised in Ft. Lauderdale, is now a resident of Georgia. She is a dedicated wife, the dutiful mother of four children, and a successful entrepreneur of Family First Coding Specialist. She is a covenant partner of The Sanctuary and is our Minister of Giving. She is ambitious outgoing, and she takes great pleasure in giving and helping others succeed in life. If this devotional has fed your soul, please share with your friends and family. Click the social share button or leave a comment in the box below for Norell .