Have you ever caught yourself questioning the who, what, when, where, why and how in your life?
Have you ever lost sleep, worried so much that you couldn’t function on a day to day basis? You were praying and wishing things were different; searching for an answer? And when you finally get the answer you’ve been looking for, you feel that it is the answer because it gave you some type of satisfaction, but you only end up right back in the same predicament?
Throughout my life I’ve always thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I knew how I felt and what was best for me, only to still be questioning everything. We often choose the government, people, money but what we seek is right in front of us. You see convenience as the enemy, but we conveniently love a comfort zone. A zone where we lack growth, we settle, we struggle, we are afraid to sacrifice, and we are afraid of the unknown. But yet we still question everything while praying, wishing and hoping. We become impatient, angry, irritated or better yet “we get in our bags,” and start pulling out our bags, blame. We blame ourselves, blame others, because we put our expectation on those who continuously take from us and never put anything back. We even blame God. We ask him, “Why Me?” But didn’t He answer with what we ask for? There’s an old saying, “be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it all and some of it you don’t want.”
We have a roof over our heads. But we complain. How do we expect our prayers to be answered when we don’t appreciate what’s already been given to us? We question everything but did we ever once think how life, the universe, our Creator view us as we are complaining? It wasn’t until I began to ask myself the hard questions, such as:
Why is it so hard for me to put my trust in Him?
What am I afraid of?
Do I know where I stand in life?
Do I know if I am coming or going?
Do I think I deserve what I have been asking for?
Am I ready to sacrifice? Am I ready to let go? Are I ready to and able to be humble?
Am I sure I am ready for what I am asking for?Do you really know what you want?
I know I didn’t sometimes, it wasn’t until I made a choice. That choice is one we’re all entitled to, to put my trust in Him. Once I did that I stopped questioning and I started living in blessings that I never thought I would experience.
Are you ready to experience the blessings that come when we unpack our bags and trust Him?
Kristina Cousar is a woman of many talents. The New York native is a mother of 3 who has faced a lot challenges and road blocks but it made her stronger by becoming a Covenant Partner and a Mentee. Kristina has been able to put fear behind her and she is now a Certified Chef and that’s only the beginning. She desires to be an example not only to single mothers but to anyone who is feeling hopeless.If this blog has encouraged your soul, please like, share and repost or comment.